Worth

If you put the happiness of others before your own, you'll soon regret it

I have read this quote for a while now, been hearing it for a lot longer but what if it's who I really am. What if, I prefer making others feel happy even if it costs me.

I do find it better to put others' (people whom I love and cherish) happiness and/or feelings rather than my own. Most of you will not agree but to me sacrificing my own happiness or feelings make sense if it's for the one I love. To me it's worth it.

I'd rather go with what she wants, what she believes in.

I'd rather lose and argument than blowing up the problem out of proportion.

I'd rather see her smile even if it means more work for me.

That way, I know I won't regret anything. Making whatever effort just to see her smile.

But there're times that it's really taking toll on me. I'm not my usual self. I'm giving up a lot (but not too many/ major) but still feels like I did nothing.

I really don't know what to do at times.

*I don't know if it's the right thing to practice but I've been like this for so long.